Anger

am i being too childish?
am i too immature?
i still remember what Jayra told me yesterday. 
"you know what to think, you know what to do. you just cant accept the fact" she damn well has a point. and thank you babe for that reality check. i love you to bits! but still, why am i still here? why havent i moved an inch when i thought i moved miles away? (why am i using old measuring terms. pergh) so many whys.


so i am being childish. i am immature. is that wrong? yes it's fucking wrong. 


why am i so filled with rage and anger? my stupidity. my stubbornness. my arrogance. thats why im angry. 

i am sorry. maybe i should just...but i cant. but i should. 


shasha.